Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Heartache

I can't seem to make my heart stop aching.  I have cried for two days now and can't seem to feel much better.  Why do our children make such dumb choices?  I have taught them right from wrong, how to work hard, how to treat others well, how to serve, etc., but they just don't seem to get it.  I am feeling like such a failure.

How can they move out when they can't afford it?  Why do I have to live with disrespect and unkindness and lack of willingness to help and follow my rules?  They are adults now for heaven's sake! 

I know I shouldn't put something this personal out there and will probably delete this in about 15 minutes, but there....I have said it!

7 comments:

  1. I feel your pain...been there, done that and still doing that. I find my relief in praying to God.

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  2. One of the greatest ways you can show your love to your children is to love them enough to let them fall - They will be ok because they will still be in God's grace & The seeds you have planted will still exist -In time they will be what they were meant to be in God's eyes - with his help - In his time - And they will be so much better at it because of what they have learned :)

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  3. awe the wonderful part of child rearing that Dr Spock missed in his book. Hugs to you my friend.
    The choices we have given our children are ones which we have stood behind, we have guided them to the best of our ability and we have never asked for anything in return, that's just the way it is. It sure opens our eyes when we see the ones we love the most hurting the ones who love them the most,(usually ourselves). I keep my focus on the fact that it is what they have learned from us when we are not watching that will show us just what they about and may give us an incite as to why they make the choices they make. Oh and someone is always there to tell you what nice, polite and incredible children you have, how helpful they are and wonderful individuals they are and you think to your self,,,, What, chu talk'n bout willis? my kids??? lol
    Thankfully they are acting or reacting the way they are because of what they are going through not because of what you have taught or shown them.... It will work out, maybe not today, maybe not this week but in the long run it will and then you can sit back, take a nice deep breath , look up and say Thank You
    Be always in stitches.

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  4. I am so sorry, Peggy. I will keep you and your children in my prayers.

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  5. I think it is due to them wanting to feel grown up and when you say "they can't coz of xyz" they go ahead and shout and scream etc and then after awhile they find out you were right but they have to learn ..... the only thing you can do now is take deep breath put the kettle on and know that you have done your best for them and its all in "Gods hands" now love mouse xxxx

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  6. Peggy, You're not alone. I've had my ups and downs with my own kids(step) the oldest is 20 and he's giving us lots of fits ...

    You shouldn't feel bad about posting personal stuff on here! This is where your online friends can help. When we were going through a lot I posted some personal stuff and felt weird about it at first .. but in the end, I felt so much better knowing I had the love and support of my friends on here!

    You and your kids will be in my thoughts and prayers!! But just know .. you are not alone, I think at some point all parents go through stuff like this with their kids.

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  7. Hi Peggy, I couldn't find your blog and finally found it again! I feel your pain. We went through that with our daughter. Oh, the stories I could tell. Take care. You're in my prayers and remember, this, too, shall pass.

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